Well, it has been awhile since i have written anything down. this posting isn't about the media. it is about my life. This week is just getting worse and worse. I really don't have a female friend to vent to, so i'm going to blog about it. 

First off, my grandma called me monday night while i was getting ready for work. i work 11-7 shift. I knew something was up cause she never calls me that late, she is hardly ever up that late, but she couldn't go to bed til she told me the news.  anyway, my grandma has been short of breath for about a week now.  i have told her repeatedly to go to the doctor and get checked out.  she finally listened to me and went to the doc monday. the doc said she had had a mild heart attack.  she had to go to searcy that next day for more test to see what kind of shape her heart was in.  she has had two heart cathiders in the past. she was diagnosed with having 3 blockages in her heart in 1986. anyway, she called me tuesday once she got out of the heart doctor. that doc said her heart was really damaged. she has to wear a heart monitor until july 14th. that is when she goes back to get the results. 

My grandma basically raised me and my siblings.  I talk to her more frequently than i do my mom. my mom was only 16 when she had me, i think of her more like a big sister. but i still love my mom like any daughter should love their mom.  anyway,  i'm really bummed bout my grandma. i was quite upset.  i think i would really have a breakdown if she passed. it would be even worse if i didn't make it in time to say goodbye to her. 

Second, i haven't been getting but like 4 hrs sleep a day. when u work 11-7, i think a person needs at least the recommended 8 hours.  i feel so drained, worn out. i'm so tired, i don't feel good, i have no energy. i fought for 45minutes to get out of bed and clean house today.  usually as soon as my alarm goes off, i am up and going....not this week.

Third, as i was cleaning house i was getting ready to feed my hampster. i usually feed him once every 4-6 days. i give him a big scoop of food and it usually lasts.  i mean he'll still have some in his cage when i go to give him more.  As i was going to feed him  i noticed he was laying down on his side. as i got to looking, he wasn't moving, or breathing.  he was dead.  i cried.....and cried.  i haven't checked on him in about 4 days, so i have no idea when he past.  i went to pick him up and dispose of him and  noticed i wasn't going to be able to just get him in one piece.......which was totally disgusting.  I was so upset. i had to throw the whole cage away. I have never ever had an animal die on me. i have had several several pets in the past.  i don't know what happened. i took care of him just like i was suppose to, i never neglected him or abuised him. i really loved him. he was so darn cute.  now all we have is a bassett hound. he is my sons.  the hampster was his also, but he is only 3 so he couldn't take care of him, so i did.  My pet was a ferrett, but i had to give him away, he had to have more care than i had time for. so instead of making him suffer for days without any food or water, i gave him to a very loving family that did have time for him and that had wanted a ferrett.  they live right next door to me, so i still get to see her. 

well,  since i have been able to get everything out i feel a little better now. 

I hope who ever reads this has  a good day and a great weekend.  it is suppose to storm here all weekend and some next week.  we are in dire need of some rain. not as bad as cali, but we do still need some.

   ok, hope ya'll are having a good day.  i'm really not liking the options i have on voting for the next president.  i have weighed out my options, but i can't think of a really good reason as to why one of them should get my vote.

   I would be very proud if a woman became president, but Hillary just believes in things that I don't. The one thing that i am against the most is abortion.  I know woman can get taken advantage of and become pregnant. They might want to get an abortion after something like that. But the woman should think of what would be best for the baby growing inside of her. They are millions of husbands and wives out there that cannot have children that would give anything to be able to adopt one.  I would much rather see a baby get adopted than to get aborted.  If you give the baby up for adoption, you are not only helping out yourself, but you are helping the innnocent newborn and a couple who thought they never would have a baby of their own.  I have 3 children myself. If I wasn't able to have children, my only options would have been to adopt. For that to happen a woman would have had to go thru 9 months of pregnancy for a couple to have a lifetime of happiness.  It would be so worth it.

  There is only two thing I can say about Obama.  His name sounds too much like osama bin laden.  There ain't no way I'm gonna vote for him.  His preacher sure didn't help him out any.  He caused a lot of trouble for Obama.

   I don't know anything bout Mccain except he is friends with President Bush, and that is enough for him not to get my vote. Bush has really messed up. Our troops should be home(ALL OF THEM) gas should be a lot cheaper.  I read on yahoo a few weeks ago that one major drilling company profitted over 1 billion.  Instead of thinking bout themselves they should be thinking bout the ppl that actually have to work 40+hrs a week for their money.  It is $4 or 5 where I live. it Sucks.



  Anyway, hope ya'll have gotten something out of reading this, if not sorry. If i helped make ur decision in any way, i'm happy.  I'll write again when i can.

alright ya'll. did u watch any of american idol. unlike previous seasson, i was a very religious watcher this time.  This season was actually a good one.  i was jumping up for joy and yellin and the top of my lungs when i found out the very sexy David Cook had won.  I actually got a tear in my eyes. I was sooooo proud.  The other David however has some maturing to do not only that, but he needs to tell the truth when it comes to a song that he has done before.  I is a good singer and all, but as Simon says, he was always "Pretictable".

Anyway, that's my blog for now.

congrats to David Cook, I'm soooo proud of you.  Good Luck!!!!